The pressure to build perfection.
Sorry but, you do not live in a Currier and Ives painting, but then, neither did Jesus whose birth we celebrate! He just wanted to be home, with us.
Remember the old Song: “I’ll be home for Christmas, you can count on me…” Home is a term that elicits powerful emotions but it’s also a term that means something different for everyone because, obviously, we all have different homes. We might think about our childhood home or a place we lived when it seemed we were happy and comfortable, usually somewhere that we lived for a long time. But generally when we think of home we think of being where those we love are; as the old saying goes— “Home is where the heart is.”
Which is of course why we want to be home for Christmas. It isn’t a place where everything is perfect, though it seems the farther back we look to a place we thought of as home, the more perfect it becomes— at least that is if you have been fortunate enough to have experienced living in a place where you are truly loved. Whatever your past, one thing we do all share, and that is the opportunity to shape the memories of home for someone else. To make these the golden years for someone you love. A child, a grandchild, niece, nephew, husband, wife, good friends, neighbors— all it takes is loving the people God puts in your life and doing your best.
Sometimes your best can turn into something much different than you had planned, but even that can become a treasured memory— family lore.
Wild Kitty
Years ago. when our girls were still at home, I thought I had the perfect opportunity to score some big points towards making that perfect childhhod home experiance for our kids.
We had a feral cat living under one of the storage sheds behind the shop of the construction company that I worked for, uninvited of course, and, as cats are prone to do— it had kittens. Last thing we needed was a whole batch of wild cats living in our back lot. So the wise folks in the office called animal control and they loaned us some live traps. I wasn’t involved in this whole cat trapping adventure but I just happened to be in the office for some reason when our shop guy brought in one of the traps.
They had captured one of the kittens; a little tiny orange calico cat. While the ladies in the office were oohing and aweing I had an idea. I hate cats but I have three daughters who don’t. A couple of years earlier I had scored big daddy points by getting two kittens for the girls— I only asked for one but our neighbor was determined to give us two and when he brought them over Cally seized one and Jessie seized another and that was all she wrote— Ben and Jo-Jo were part of the family.
They mostly lived in the barn so that was cool with me. But here was a chance to get Danielle a cat of her own. She was just a toddler when the other two showed up but now she was five or six—perfect I thought, she’s old enough to really appreciate having her own kitty— I’ll be the hero and Donna, knowing how much I hate cats— will be impressed by my sacrificial love. You ladies laugh but you guys know what I’m talking about don’t you?
Anything we can do to distract from the fact that we are just big clueless oafs trying to get through life without looking too stupid and heartless is a good thing.
There was just one problem— this kitten was a wild as a March hare. He was all needle sharp claws, teeth and hisses. With a lot of encouragement from the ladies who didn’t want to see the cat go to the animal shelter I got a cardboard box and a pair of welding gloves- this wasn’t my first wild kitty rodeo— reached in and got a good hold of this ball of fuzzy fury, dropped her in the box and closed the lid while he was still hissing. I thought; “Well, he’ll settle down eventually”.
I took little kitty home to find no one there so I left the box, with the kitty still inside, in the mudroom with a note that said: For Danielle, open carefully; left the welding gloves laying on top of the box, figuring that would be a hint, and went out to bale hay.
Donna and the girls got home and of course the first thing they did was open the box. That cat shot straight up out of there like it had been fired from a cannon, hit the floor and ran for whatever cover it could find in this new strange home. By the time I came in from the field they had managed to herd it into the basement where Donna and Danielle were bribing it with milk and canned cat food.
I wasn’t the hero yet, they were still trying to recover from the shock of having this orange ball of fur and claws fly out of this innocent looking box and narrowly missing their faces. After a few days Danielle was able to tame the kitten and even named it Muffin. After a week or to the cat started getting real lethargic, turns out our new kitty had congenital heart problems and soon died. Still not the hero.
But you know what? That little episode has become a part of our family story. As sad as it was too tragically loose little Muffin at such a young age, we often laugh about how Dad tried to be the hero by bring his little girl a crazy wild and terminally ill kitten.
But that’s what makes a house a home— It’s not being perfect that matters, it’s the trying that counts— that’s what gets remembered. We can all only do the best with what we have, laugh at the foibles; learn from the mistakes, and move on.
The temptation sometimes is to think; well this is all wrong, this isn’t the way I pictured it, everything is messed up— I don’t belong here so I’m not even going to try. That’s the wrong attitude and it causes us to miss out, to miss out on life and the potential blessings hidden inside of it.
The Real Christmas Spirit
I think we as believers are sometimes more susceptible to this than anyone. This world is not my home; I am just passing through, biding my time till the Lord returns or I go to him. Everything just seems wrong. The world is a mess, the people I’m surrounded by are a mess, everything is so hard; how can I possibly be happy here? I just want to go home. Without going into a big theological discussion about the whys let me just assure you that you are here in this time and in this place for a reason and the Lord would have us make the most of it. For now this is our home and we have the capacity to be incredibly happy and fulfilled in spite of the chaos around us— because of who is in us. We can be blessed if we choose to be, it’s all perspective.
During the holiday season, especially for Christmas, we all want to create that perfect Currier and Ives holiday home experiance for our loved ones. Thing is, it has to just happen, you cannot make it. Just being there is key. For home is where your heart is, not where your perfect tree–towering over your perfect gifts as you sip hot cider and gather around the piano and sing carols in pefect harmony–reside. You may have noticed that you do not live in a Hallmark movie. But that’s okay, if you just show up and love those you are entrusted to love, that, above all else, will build memory’s of a home that will be a treasure forever–the home who’s memeory becomes more precious with each passing year. An open home and an open heart, that is a home where Jesus is welcome, and where he is found, and that is the true, and perfect, Chritmas spirit. That is home.
Do the best with what you have, and let love fill in the blanks.
The old Swaningson barn at Christmas.